Evening....

Sitting idle nothing to do, I remembered those evenings – play ground, it was only time where one was ruthless, there was a constant competition and coming first was consolation, the main aim was to sweat out days piled up frustration!!! It was during school. Off went school time and came in new hobby in the most happening years of – college!

It was gymming…. running/stretching/double bar/single bar… just increasing weights on bar for inclined, bicep, legs gave different kind of kick…. It was followed by climbing. Climbing certainly helped with stretching and more stretching and more stretching. There was seen flexibility in upper / lower torso… flaunting with those cuts pumped muscles and that though infront of other climber was a boost! Moving in 360degree on verticle wall was stamp of authority!!!:):) As sun went west I took east! Yeah… it was time decide in consent with the bestfriend! Getting all the coins for that half a cup of coffee was an activity :) giving those excuses of stomachache and on way asking waiter to get hot chocolate to the table, just to see the smile was worth of any ache! WOW it couldn’t have been better youth….

Days changed and then the months, then the years and then the people and even the body... but I guess not the memories… - suddenly it came up when I was sitting idle outside docs cabin!

I had only asked god for courage he gave me difficulties too, to over come it!! But god is there an end to this? I asked looking at heavens after I got out of tiring medical checkup - haa MRI scan… The shoulder, the knees which once were at helm, slowly started showing up signs of frangibility… How often we heard them say health is wealth! How quickly realization of not being in fine fettle came down crashing!

Off all I have said and done, the youth was really fun.
The evenings which I had set in style, had stopped for a while.
Will it be the same.... time can only tell.

Touchwood!

Not bad...

I forgot to carry my keys and as usual I came late around 2:00
All I did was went up the gate and climbed down... Haaaa those "college days" climbing the gate with utmost ease, going out to station for chayee and in midst of event hoping everything to be at peace, back home! was also fun to get caught and then those mighty excuses! ;);) time changed, but so far; not exactly the body.

Almost nearly after a decade, I could climb the same gate with the same zeal! I guess adaptability of mind to the situation clubbed with flexibility of body - can make wonders!!!

Should thank God! :)

Difference

Sometimes subject line force us to search for an image
while, sometimes image itself takes us to subject line....

Small difference, "Big difference"! :)

The impact..

After long time I had seen excitement in his eyes, and why not? he was about to get married. Before then he had some on and off relations but most of the time it was one sided affair or was rejected by the opposite, A average person in terms of looks, grasping, and earning was only looking for one thing – one steady relation! The only thing which bothered him was loneliness but then how on the earth any beauty was going to accept this avg and that too for a marriage?

Things changed and his prayers were answered, finally two of them zeroed on one thing "YES". The guy who once called me every night for a glass of beer, understandably ignored me :) guy who once stayed at office till mid-night was leaving as early as he could, he was becoming more serious about his own future. He was determined on having a good life with his better half too.

He had put in extra efforts at work, the work he did was on application and one error was to cost the entire department a slap on face – never he committed any slightest error – yet the self proclaimed brilliants in org gave him worst rating, no increment leave aside promotion! He still didn’t loose hope all he kept saying was one thing, it will change! And it will…. because of her presence!

The marriage date was of today! But then the the great almighty the - Karta - Karvita had some other plans, yesterday the bugger was admitted to the hospital as he witnessed chest pain, hole in the heart, clubbed with pressure of uncertain tomorrow did the trick... marriage is now postponed the date is not fixed either, all his dreams, happiness of his parents are put on hold. the big Q which lies is will he be rejected yet another time? At prima-facie "I HOPE NOT"

All these years he held-off for one thing and the moment it arrived he is about two witness moments of truth!

The heart and brain functions in there own way, heart doesn’t have its own brain and brain can’t think from heart! (blessed are those who can balance it and fortunate are those who find better half with same inclination)

I hope he gets well and gets married soon, it will take split second for a person to change mind and the impact of rejection will leave permanent scars on brain and heart which eventually will lead to yet another infinite combat!!

Whatever the outcome, let the potential couple come out together with winning smile!

Amen!

Siddharth

And....

And the fun begins!!! :) heheheh...

2010 wont be a turning year. However, its important for me as I will need to check on things which gave me easy escape...what are those? many....

let the search continues! happy 2010!

here you go....

I met a friend who said she was bored about knowing what food my company gives…. Huh? How was it possible…. She never came to my office. Not even once, and was bored of knowing what company provides… (I could have understood, had she got the taste! ;)

Smartly I asked her; how is it possible? (Making girls feel brilliant about them self is funny thing to see) …. I know everything, Came the reply! …. (and I gave up conversation)

Then she came back to the real point:

Out of work she got in touch with a guy from my office, and this fella was telling her things which she was least interested about…..

How funny are human species? Just give them a touch and they will try to be all over you… and boy… if female is in opposite chair and single then only sky is the limit to the opposite mans thoughts… desires…..

Generally I said, thank your stars… this guy is not telling his whereabouts, if this is the case then be assured something is wrong either at both ends (love) or worst for one!

I was telling her as if I am completely out of - my basic needs, to love and be loved by someone, may be by only one girl who will be special in my one life.

I too thanked my stars for being single, for not having a girl in my life at this moment. who I could “die for” the one person who you can’t stop loving! In long gone – worst past of mine, I realized one thing, sometimes being alone (not lonely though) is fun! Was just enjoying the moment of being alone and as usual my happiness was tormented by artifact – called “relation”

How funny are these human needs at times we just want to be ourself, alone, see the things happening around and feeling happy for not being part of it... just as mere spectator, and suddenly we need someone may be someone really special who will give meaning to our life! This was crazy man….

I told all this to my friend and she said; boy I think (aah how good was it to hear someone calling 29 years old man as boy :) you need to write a book on relations. How can without knowing anything or half the things girls come to final conclusion? “I think” anyway I was not in mood to question her “I think” abilities…. But writing a book on relation?

One can only write book on relation if he/she is master in it, and not just saviors… we all in relations are saviors! The real master is someone who we humans have termed it as God!

Absolutely! said she…. Now where is your “I think” Disappeared? I was about to ask but then was too engrossed in my thoughts which were about to explode!

When I was kid, I was been told; God is superpower he carefully examines our every action; the only way to salvation is to be nice. The prayer are only way to reach to heavens!

Naturally The image of God was the ultimate. The one who creates human!

God created opposite gender

God was responsible for letting know the people pleasure of sex

God kept it simple…..

But then it seems, he was also bored of simplicity, so again he brought insecurities in humans… lust in peoples mind… infidelity, craving for something unusual. This was another side of gift given to humans…..

There were unsatisfied faces around, so people entered in extra marital affairs. The unhappy souls needed some adventure so people decided to enter into outside relation. Dissatisfied went to prostitutes, not for sex, but they could lick each other toes and fingers which otherwise was not possible… The otherwise socially accepted, well behaved men and women found prostitutes as way of means for satisfying their fantasies. The insecured cheated on partners. Why did god created such things? Why did he put these stupid ideas in some people?

Some paid heavy price for his / hers partner fatal error of life. Some committed suicide, some became permanent residents of asylum. Some could never get back to normalcy. All mayhem!

Every tide brings rise and fall, but with such people around - only tears came out as winner for those who suffered; and forever guilt for those who were responsible!

Phew ....

so much taxing but yet so true…. It was unending yet one thing which left eternal was our believe in god!

There were days when we stood in front of his statue and prayed cause someone told us to do. Even god had his share in our early days of life –after the exams before the results! God stayed with us in youth too when every prayer offered to him was for the lovely girl we loved beyond everything… Things changed and so the needs but prayers were here to stay!!

Hoping against hope was nothing but a prayer!

Yet we all did and keep doing same thing day in day out! Praying and Praying….

Let us do a different prayer this time

God let you alone be master of relations, but not make any one a destroyer. Let all humans be Saviors!

- Amen!

Rest they say is History!

Tell me something about yourself:

What kind of question is this?

Are we really what we are?
Are we living life for our self?
Or are we living life of what other want us to live?
Are we living in social dogma and passing on judgments of right and wrong, good and bad?
Aren’t we not always thinking about past and hoping about future? Aren’t we not always dreaming and praying!?

Is it not hoping against hope which keeps us going?

Can it possible for mortals to describe themselves on piece of paper?

Is not everything temporary?
Money we earn, assets we create, trust we fuck, truth which is often overlooked, relations which goes for toss, is it not all temporary?

Still don’t we all crave for temporary means of happiness?

What really stays with mortals is breathe!

It’s by law of nature that we breathe!
Breath in breath out is only thing which is constant, which is utmost important, which I / you can feel, which signifies some value, which goes on and on and on… which is the only thing we can TRUST day in day out! The day the trust is broken….

They say it’s History : is not then breathe even temporary? :-)