Things will fall in place; for you, for me and hopefully for both of us together!

Sitting in a classroom, my eyes were glued to the book but mind? It was with her…

“Better be safe, than sorry” and on the same note I’d never allowed myself to cross boundaries, was least interested in someone’s private life and yet today I was feeling bad for her?

I was good at confrontation, loved debates, but not once took someone’s fight as my personal one and yet here I was taking up a fight - which didn’t even belonged to me. 

That was a point when I realized how badly screwed up I was!

I wasn’t obsessed but surely protective about her.

Every time I looked at her all I could think was; How will I protect her when she’s feeling lonely? How will I protect her when she’s rejected?
How will I protect her when she thinks her things are under her control but go horribly astray?  
How will I protect her from not being in tears? What would I do to bring back the smile…

 

Somwhere I knew but wasn’t willing to accept the answer; after a while I couldn’t have done much to protect her?

 All I could do was to pray for things to fall in place; for her, for me and hopefully for both of us together!

Project - ROAD MAP!

Its the Dream which will turn into Mission. Mission will help to formulate objective and once the objective is set the GOAL/(S) is bound to turn in REALITY! 

Irrespective of success or failure, setting GOALS - short-term and long term are utmost important for all the individuals, for Corporate Giants, for SME's, for Nations. Be it in field of personal achievements, acquiring new ventures or improving per capita of Nation. 

Once the goal is /are set it becomes easier for entities to work towards it. 

As far as sport / Olympic events are concerned...  

From 1 Medal in 2004 Athens to 3 in 2008 Beijing to 6 in 2012 London Olympics India has emerged as a Nation with WINNING POTENTIAL.

But there is a difference between WINNING POTENTIAL AND POWERHOUSE.

India may not be able to match US, India  will surely not go China way... 

But it can definitely take cues from some countries who have raised there tally of medals exponentially over past few decades. 

India has talent in abundance..... 

All India / Indians need is a ROAD - MAP "A GOAL!!!"

GOOD-LUCK FOR RIO... 

Experience a curse?

Age is just a number, what counts is wisdom.
Wisdom it comes from experience.
Experience it opens up a window to see things in different perspective.
Experience it takes away the youth, worst it ends the innocence forever!

Modify it!

Salman Khans initiative and one would wonder how on the earth a man with such irresponsible attitude can start up such NGO?

He should have slightly modified it….



And its not just the star but for everyone of us who at times are ruthless, erratic, cold, angry, mad, stupid with the outside environment due to betrayal, loss, anger, resentment and all negative feelings which manifest through our behavior towards society – parents, hypocrat, friends, politicians, and relation/(s;)

It should be…

TRY BEING HUMAN! ;-) ;-)

Trust ***** :-)

* * * * *
S T A R S

It was around 1500hrs when he saw a starry night; the sky was studded with billions of STARS! He wasn’t fast asleep, knew it was happening in subconscious, yet could see Stars getting brighter... and suddenly they were falling all over!!

All this lasted for some 10/15 sec.... but, boy must have been worth a runtime affair :-) :-)

Interpretation:

Such could only happen if ones mind is cluttered.
When one has unfading desire to achieve things which they set eyes on!
And third one my friend – see for yourself if ever you experience –

Deja vu!

Thankyou Persistent!

Dear God,

Truth be told:

Sept4 2006 was a dream come true! Couple of days before I stood opposite of buld'g hoping to get in, not only I got opportunity but also got on board.
It was privileged to be part of it.

Time changed and so did the heart, mind – lookout! Finally the day has come - I am feeling very edgy about the decision which I have chosen. This was one of the best thing which happened to me! Had a very lovely and caring team and fortunately(understanding manager too.. ;)I met many nice people on my way, got lots of girl friends (girls who are friends:) compliments - haaa... nearly every day I got from some one girl or other... some said good things some found me too arrogant, with lot of attitude (loved the later one most:) These years also changed my lookout, there were some bad moments... some were impossible, some worst, some extraordinary too! Yet I am sure I couldn’t have moved out, if I was in love with comfort.

Your blessing got me to this point, Embrace me with the love and give me the will to be persistently committed to future endeavours!

Thank you God! Thank you Persistent!

Simple Math

39 + 11 = 50

Yeah........ It's my 50th Blog! :)

p.s.
"Calculation, suddenly looks much simpler than logical methods"

Sidddeebaba ;);)

Happens

Finally she's there!

haaa you wont know, how much relieved I have been! I couldn’t eat, nor could I sleep. I spoke to people around but wasn’t interested in the conversation, did some presentations but mostly bookish, let me tell you it wasn't an easy affair.
On how many occasions we expect small small things for others and yet fate plays a spoil sport!
Well, it wasn't the case this time! The wait was frustrating, but the outcome is soothing!

Just take care of your body and mind! Get well soon.

Amen!

How lucky were we the word we never missed! at the most it was limited to parents... morning we were dressed for school and by the twilight we thought of them :) we only missed mom when we were hungry... grandparents at the time of festivals, cousins during time of vacation, elder brother during those intense school fights, and dad we missed him when our wallets missed Mr. MK Gandhi. ;)

Seldom, we thought about the word till one day it came down crashing and derailed our conscious! Did we really miss the person who helped us know the meaning? was it the smile? the touch? softness of the lips? raw kiss? the fragnence? what exactly did we miss / people around missed? answers will vary, yet once there comes time when we forget everthing and.....

"only miss the person we thought they were"! Did I miss the title? ;)

Innocence!

I want too...

Hun... :( right now!
I want too write a blog on person which is in my subconscious!
I want too write a blog on "which could have been most heated up conversation" (imaginary) between Kunti and Sun god! ;)
I want too write a blog on my new girlfriend one which will never leave me irrespective of my partners presense! (and Iam sure partner wont mind it either!:)
I want too write a blog on Chakras, there flow, disadvantages when its imbalanced!
I want too write blog on surmai cury, crab masala, chicken tandoor and mutton biryani! yummy........ ;)
I want too write a blog on rain!

Yet, all I am doing is sitting and trying to put my focus back onto the thing which is more important than any, at this moment - studies!

Somethings... can wait for sometime - I guess!

p.s. I guess by 6:00 AM I will land up writing a blog on tears (how studying alone can be tiresome! ;)

Surprised!

The impacts of some decision are known years latter… some reap individual’s good results some backfire!

The decision I took was not under anyone’s influence, it wasn’t impulsive either! After a time I thought it was time for me to call it off and hence took decision of moving out of my team (unit of beautiful energetic girl’s) of company (which is growing in numbers) of job (which was giving me decent salary)

I was passionate about my work, I loved what I was doing, or I was doing what I loved :) till then it was ok, but one morning I got up and seriously doubted my inputs. Day two I had to drag myself to office... weeks later I was questioning my existence! I would have certainly gone brainsick had it lasted for months! All I had to do was either stick to it and live a “life of a class” who want to explore new things but can’t due to seamless tiring constraints or least try and explore few possibilities of what human brain is capable off ()!

Forget about the rest – but decision also took me by surprise, how on the earth can one put security on least priority? Ahhhh "Security” Here I come, we come…

A big building, glass walls, AC cubicles is security...
9:00 to 18:00hrs job is security...
5days working is security…
Free meals / snacks, free coffee and tea is security...
Sweating it out entire year just to receive insignificant some of money on 1st of FY is security...
Withdrawing month’s salary after 10days of leave is security...
Being extremely good at dirty politics is security...
Being a good asskisser is security...
And mother of all… Inspite of escalation / mess up being rest assured of job – is security...

After all such benefits how can one overlook securities?

But now I am thoroughly convinced; some souls simply adore betting with fire :)

I am sure most of working professional some day or other go through such emotions. Some accept and carry on, while some rebel… Yet the fact remains… Security is utmost important factor for mortals, be it in job or love or emotions… Secures are more content then there insecured counterparts…

Well after knowing all this, I have fancied the chance of moving out of job security, thanks to those who have shown faith and support!

Time will certainly give its verdict, all I can provide is rigorous consistency and most important will to carry on!

The Connect

This was one of the easiest Q asked by 92 years old lady... and yet he was unable to get it spot on!

What do you get by climbing mountains? What do you get by doing cycling? in heat of moment he replied "you wont understand" but in retrospect the Q" meant a lot..

What have I really got by climbing mountains? Be it in Himalayas or any other pinnacle / fort in sayahadari... what have I achieved by climbing? by trekking? by cycling?

Experience...which will not be counted!
Memories...which won’t last!
Summit success... which is one minute glory!
The important facet is one blow’s up the earning - some may agree some may not! yet the fact remains - one spends tens of thousands, and most valuable time to pursue the sport! And still the urge of going back doesn’t stop!

May be the simplest answer to the Q would have been - "because they are there"! but then, even that aint true! There are lots of exotic places around; yet,





Why run behind unforgiving sunlight, blistering wind, and harsh elements?
Why sleep on slope, pebbles under the karrimat?
Why everytime face has to go black? lips cracked?
Why everytime fight dehydration?
Why everytime skip lunch and later feel proud about it?
Why everytime talk to muscles, joints?
Why everytime play with mind and purse it for last leg?
Is all the rubble worth so much trouble?

I asked these Q as if I knew the answers, but honestly I don’t have it!

All I knew was one thing, such a sport is inside, its internal business, it helps in shaping our charecter; its not about success, its not about summit, its not about destinations, its not even about obstacles, there is ego within; which needs a boost, its fear of loosing which keeps the person going..

There’s is this unforgettable lesson of Fight, Perseverance, Acceptance, and Surrender! taught by Mother Nature - which remains with the soul forever!

Well you can’t explain it to a novice, True!

The old lady asking me is my ajee.. I guess at this age she won't comprehend with "connect" nyways!

Can the mind be changed?

He has always been consistent in making resolutions at start of the year... then it went to 1st of every month, then to a week - Monday and finally ceased on tomorrow...

I don’t remember how many time he promised me, of not drinking from tomorrow? The determination started when the sun god showed up, and faded with his exit! Well gone are those good old days, one day he finally came to term, liquor was passing affair and he was seeing refuge!

All I thought everyday - was there any need for him to drink every night? and honestly then and even today he says NO!
Was he ashamed of sin? On asking him he always said No. He never felt bad about drinking?

The need wasn't for body but for mind... All it did was helped him forget bitter experience and forgive those who made it possible, it also gave him unmatched courage to avoid cowards and finally the bottle refrained him from potential relations which he could have had it with opposite. He drank and drank badly cause to avoid possible conflicts or at times relations.. (not that relations are bad) But he wasn't keen on having stop gap arrangements and was so self-centric that never wished to do anything in half hearted manner.

Drinking is not bad, for those who drink for pleasure, but can have devastating effects if one avails just to run away from reality. It simply takes the drunker on different plane where every thing around looks rosy, secured and by the moment one is out of hangovers, reality struck.... O no - REALITY HAUNTS!

Days went by and so were months,
Years came and were gone,
The guy who once had determination was showing up signs of vulnerability.. This was to end somewhere, but "how" was the "big Q"

Until one day he realized -

Today’s reality was to be tomorrow’s past,
Tomorrow was yet to come, what all mattered was today!

The problem was in his mind, as he contempleted on every word, action of others! Others who had, kind of dislike for him - for his attitude, but were unable to express there true opinion!

All it took him was to change his outlook; the mind finally persuaded to the very fact once which he conceived but had long forgotten!


Siddharth -
"You could fix your own problems and not someone else’s Problem"

Crossing!

I was part of a training program - "Customer relation" being in support function we have to deal with internal people - this is what most of people think, and as usual I was against it!

After introductory session, expected Q was out on table "who are our customer"? and in my head I zeroed on myself, I am my own customer! Sounds funny isn't it? but then fun lies in believing what others might feel strange.

Every individual who enters organization enters with some responsibilities / tasks which are assigned too... Organization pays us for work we do, appreciates our job by way of rewards / promotions... you dare carry your sorrows for number of hours / days at work place and its deliberately overlooked, you dare prolong it and get ready for downturn / worst for pink slip!

We are often judge by performance we show, which are part of "Key Results Areas" KRA's! Like us even our managers have their own KRA's, similarly Head of department, CEO and finally Owner!

Normally its said that people leave managers and not organization, but think the other way! We never work for organizations we work for our managers! Its portion of our managers KRA which we fulfill day in and out! But more important we fulfill our own needs by fulfilling our KRA's.

How many times in a day we dislike our job, the environment? If frustration levels are so high, then why? Why don't we resign then and there?

Cause it is our need for currency, need of being in power…

Then who is individuals real customer? :)



Siddharth

Its 31st

It's 31st 2009... and I am sitting home thinking about how others must be enjoying, what they must be doing? not that I am too anxious to join any group but still I am wondering / lost in forest of past memories... the days when I was home yet had some one to call at 12:00 :) then it was one, today it could be many.. yet mind doesn't accepts the invitation....

Is that I am still the same old guy... Or is it I have started loving solitude... I guess the later!

Actually for many 31st is a event... for me every night was 31st... hope it continues the same in 2010 - slightly in better way!

Amen!

Siddharth

hurray!

Its my 10th blog.... reaching 10 was easy, I have been there many times,
Thought of this 10 and its relation with me...
28 my b'day - 2+8 = 10, Celebration which I did after clearing 10th, Two wheeler license which I got after 10th, My first girlfriend whom I saw in 10th.. My first 10 climbs / camps / treks, and finally my first relation which lasted for 10... (somehow, I have never had 10 grlfrnds ;) so be it.., let blog continues and reaches in triple figure...

All it takes is a second...

Off late, I have been cycling and covering long distance on weekends.. I cycle upto office, I cycle day and night... Its a long time wait, and boy the feeling is incredible.
I still clearly remember the first day when I took my grandpa cycle, I was a kid and my favorite grandpa was reluctant in giving me his beloved cycle... not cause he was in love with her... (I consider most of the things feminine - not cause of there limitations but because they are desirable... :)

Coming back to that day "after long wait I got the chance and "believe me you" in first go - I was cycling without any support from behind or from any corner (kudos to the guy - though I don't clearly remember his name, gave me a reason to cry, and then confidence to smile :)... forever!!!

In school I always looked at people who drove bikes... in college I was looking after cars... and boy actual when the time came, I went back to bicycle.

I drove around 3k Kms on Bulltet in 17 days (ladhak tour)... First car I maneuvered was Toyota - tursel back in 9 standard at Saudi - Riyadh industrial area. However, today memories of past don't inspire me to run behind same thing... NOT that I have reached point of saturation... but today, the pointers of happiness - have changed!

For now, I know one thing "It takes a second to get onto bike (cycle), rest anyways falls in place" :)

Siddharth