It's 31st 2009... and I am sitting home thinking about how others must be enjoying, what they must be doing? not that I am too anxious to join any group but still I am wondering / lost in forest of past memories... the days when I was home yet had some one to call at 12:00 :) then it was one, today it could be many.. yet mind doesn't accepts the invitation....
Is that I am still the same old guy... Or is it I have started loving solitude... I guess the later!
Actually for many 31st is a event... for me every night was 31st... hope it continues the same in 2010 - slightly in better way!
Amen!
Siddharth
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
hurray!
Its my 10th blog.... reaching 10 was easy, I have been there many times,
Thought of this 10 and its relation with me...
28 my b'day - 2+8 = 10, Celebration which I did after clearing 10th, Two wheeler license which I got after 10th, My first girlfriend whom I saw in 10th.. My first 10 climbs / camps / treks, and finally my first relation which lasted for 10... (somehow, I have never had 10 grlfrnds ;) so be it.., let blog continues and reaches in triple figure...
What right you have?
The other day I forgot to carry my office keys, I called up my bro to my expectations he had left is what he said, and then it was dad. I told him about my problem and before asking him for help I had got a solution!
Don’t worry I will come, will ring you up once I reach near your office was his reply….
After a long time I was going to see him coming for me! How funny is teh mind (Am sure you must have read it THE) within seconds it took me in past.
I remembered school day, when my dad came first time to drop me, the experience of saying bye was far too much to handle… not one day, two days but years after years…saying bye to him got tears in my eyes (the problem still persist :) . All the time I use to think of same road from where he would return.. and god seeing him coming for me was in itself jubilation! Nothing made me happy than this! Suddenly without waiting for his call I went down, wanted to experience the same thing. – seeing him come “for me”
The feeling for me was the same! I saw him coming only with his growing age he couldn’t see me. The place was not even decided– the way it was during school. But the moment he saw me there was the same old smile on our face! Only he could show it, I couldn’t! Just was not in mood to express my true feelings. I said thankyou, and immediately turned back…. Two steps and again I was on same spot seeing him go, somehow I hold onto tears and didn’t allow anyone to speculate!
His visit to my office was worth, as he helped to retrospect on past!
I was going through chronology of all his efforts! The day when I got my first bicycle, the day when he admitted me to school, the day when he had spent evenings with me alone and made me laugh made me sleep in absence of my mother. I remembered his kiss when I won gold in interschool running competition, his touch when I got my first certificate of participation in drawing competition, the first time when he was really upset when I got a red mark. I remembered his hugs when I went to exams, when I passed. His touch when I was unwell, and finally his tears, seeing the misfortune in a relation!
Let me know once what right you had?
Don’t worry I will come, will ring you up once I reach near your office was his reply….
After a long time I was going to see him coming for me! How funny is teh mind (Am sure you must have read it THE) within seconds it took me in past.
I remembered school day, when my dad came first time to drop me, the experience of saying bye was far too much to handle… not one day, two days but years after years…saying bye to him got tears in my eyes (the problem still persist :) . All the time I use to think of same road from where he would return.. and god seeing him coming for me was in itself jubilation! Nothing made me happy than this! Suddenly without waiting for his call I went down, wanted to experience the same thing. – seeing him come “for me”
The feeling for me was the same! I saw him coming only with his growing age he couldn’t see me. The place was not even decided– the way it was during school. But the moment he saw me there was the same old smile on our face! Only he could show it, I couldn’t! Just was not in mood to express my true feelings. I said thankyou, and immediately turned back…. Two steps and again I was on same spot seeing him go, somehow I hold onto tears and didn’t allow anyone to speculate!
His visit to my office was worth, as he helped to retrospect on past!
I was going through chronology of all his efforts! The day when I got my first bicycle, the day when he admitted me to school, the day when he had spent evenings with me alone and made me laugh made me sleep in absence of my mother. I remembered his kiss when I won gold in interschool running competition, his touch when I got my first certificate of participation in drawing competition, the first time when he was really upset when I got a red mark. I remembered his hugs when I went to exams, when I passed. His touch when I was unwell, and finally his tears, seeing the misfortune in a relation!
Let me know once what right you had?
Friday, December 25, 2009
Gesture
Hahah today we chased 316 against Srilanka at Eiden Garden.
It was sheer application of Gambhir and youth of Kohali who got us home! Both these batsmen scored in triple figures and yet one of them was awarded "man of the match"
For one who follows the game would know who it was - Gesture!
Experience of Gambhir took us home, he was awarded "man of the match" yet he merrily gave the cheque and trophy to young Kohali... the gesture was beyond words!
"Actual pleasure lies in taking the criticism and giving away the credit"
Kuddos to Gambhir!
It was sheer application of Gambhir and youth of Kohali who got us home! Both these batsmen scored in triple figures and yet one of them was awarded "man of the match"
For one who follows the game would know who it was - Gesture!
Experience of Gambhir took us home, he was awarded "man of the match" yet he merrily gave the cheque and trophy to young Kohali... the gesture was beyond words!
"Actual pleasure lies in taking the criticism and giving away the credit"
Kuddos to Gambhir!
I love this pic... it's my desktop pic...
For me this pic is just not about holding hands....
Some meetings in life are decided by soul, even before eyes get to see each other!
Monday, November 30, 2009
All it takes is a second...
Off late, I have been cycling and covering long distance on weekends.. I cycle upto office, I cycle day and night... Its a long time wait, and boy the feeling is incredible.
I still clearly remember the first day when I took my grandpa cycle, I was a kid and my favorite grandpa was reluctant in giving me his beloved cycle... not cause he was in love with her... (I consider most of the things feminine - not cause of there limitations but because they are desirable... :)
Coming back to that day "after long wait I got the chance and "believe me you" in first go - I was cycling without any support from behind or from any corner (kudos to the guy - though I don't clearly remember his name, gave me a reason to cry, and then confidence to smile :)... forever!!!
In school I always looked at people who drove bikes... in college I was looking after cars... and boy actual when the time came, I went back to bicycle.
I drove around 3k Kms on Bulltet in 17 days (ladhak tour)... First car I maneuvered was Toyota - tursel back in 9 standard at Saudi - Riyadh industrial area. However, today memories of past don't inspire me to run behind same thing... NOT that I have reached point of saturation... but today, the pointers of happiness - have changed!
For now, I know one thing "It takes a second to get onto bike (cycle), rest anyways falls in place" :)
Siddharth
I still clearly remember the first day when I took my grandpa cycle, I was a kid and my favorite grandpa was reluctant in giving me his beloved cycle... not cause he was in love with her... (I consider most of the things feminine - not cause of there limitations but because they are desirable... :)
Coming back to that day "after long wait I got the chance and "believe me you" in first go - I was cycling without any support from behind or from any corner (kudos to the guy - though I don't clearly remember his name, gave me a reason to cry, and then confidence to smile :)... forever!!!
In school I always looked at people who drove bikes... in college I was looking after cars... and boy actual when the time came, I went back to bicycle.
I drove around 3k Kms on Bulltet in 17 days (ladhak tour)... First car I maneuvered was Toyota - tursel back in 9 standard at Saudi - Riyadh industrial area. However, today memories of past don't inspire me to run behind same thing... NOT that I have reached point of saturation... but today, the pointers of happiness - have changed!
For now, I know one thing "It takes a second to get onto bike (cycle), rest anyways falls in place" :)
Siddharth
The transition
The other day I was having a ball, after long long time I was enjoying the game... and was getting back into typical Siddharth mode: no matter where you are? against whom you are? play as if world is seeing you, with lot of passion, show some grit, emotions, little bit of aggression, total commitment and above all style!
All thing in head were dead right, could see the same 20years old Siddharth running, laughing, enjoying the game and suddenly the ball passed through.... My mind had responded but either the signal from brain reached late (or I don't know) my body couldn't respond to situation in same fashion.
They say with growing age you're movements/reflexes slow down.
Infact some days back God came in my dream and said welcome in 30's Siddharth :)
Now I don't know, weather God coming in my dream was a turning point? or is he making me realize the transition in runtime...
Whatever thank you God for 30wonderful years!
All thing in head were dead right, could see the same 20years old Siddharth running, laughing, enjoying the game and suddenly the ball passed through.... My mind had responded but either the signal from brain reached late (or I don't know) my body couldn't respond to situation in same fashion.
They say with growing age you're movements/reflexes slow down.
Infact some days back God came in my dream and said welcome in 30's Siddharth :)
Now I don't know, weather God coming in my dream was a turning point? or is he making me realize the transition in runtime...
Whatever thank you God for 30wonderful years!
Saturday, August 22, 2009
here you go....
I met a friend who said she was bored about knowing what food my company gives…. Huh? How was it possible…. She never came to my office. Not even once, and was bored of knowing what company provides… (I could have understood, had she got the taste! ;)
Smartly I asked her; how is it possible? (Making girls feel brilliant about them self is funny thing to see) …. I know everything, Came the reply! …. (and I gave up conversation)
Then she came back to the real point:
Out of work she got in touch with a guy from my office, and this fella was telling her things which she was least interested about…..
How funny are human species? Just give them a touch and they will try to be all over you… and boy… if female is in opposite chair and single then only sky is the limit to the opposite mans thoughts… desires…..
Generally I said, thank your stars… this guy is not telling his whereabouts, if this is the case then be assured something is wrong either at both ends (love) or worst for one!
I was telling her as if I am completely out of - my basic needs, to love and be loved by someone, may be by only one girl who will be special in my one life.
I too thanked my stars for being single, for not having a girl in my life at this moment. who I could “die for” the one person who you can’t stop loving! In long gone – worst past of mine, I realized one thing, sometimes being alone (not lonely though) is fun! Was just enjoying the moment of being alone and as usual my happiness was tormented by artifact – called “relation”
How funny are these human needs at times we just want to be ourself, alone, see the things happening around and feeling happy for not being part of it... just as mere spectator, and suddenly we need someone may be someone really special who will give meaning to our life! This was crazy man….
I told all this to my friend and she said; boy I think (aah how good was it to hear someone calling 29 years old man as boy :) you need to write a book on relations. How can without knowing anything or half the things girls come to final conclusion? “I think” anyway I was not in mood to question her “I think” abilities…. But writing a book on relation?
One can only write book on relation if he/she is master in it, and not just saviors… we all in relations are saviors! The real master is someone who we humans have termed it as God!
Absolutely! said she…. Now where is your “I think” Disappeared? I was about to ask but then was too engrossed in my thoughts which were about to explode!
When I was kid, I was been told; God is superpower he carefully examines our every action; the only way to salvation is to be nice. The prayer are only way to reach to heavens!
Naturally The image of God was the ultimate. The one who creates human!
God created opposite gender
God was responsible for letting know the people pleasure of sex
God kept it simple…..
But then it seems, he was also bored of simplicity, so again he brought insecurities in humans… lust in peoples mind… infidelity, craving for something unusual. This was another side of gift given to humans…..
There were unsatisfied faces around, so people entered in extra marital affairs. The unhappy souls needed some adventure so people decided to enter into outside relation. Dissatisfied went to prostitutes, not for sex, but they could lick each other toes and fingers which otherwise was not possible… The otherwise socially accepted, well behaved men and women found prostitutes as way of means for satisfying their fantasies. The insecured cheated on partners. Why did god created such things? Why did he put these stupid ideas in some people?
Some paid heavy price for his / hers partner fatal error of life. Some committed suicide, some became permanent residents of asylum. Some could never get back to normalcy. All mayhem!
Every tide brings rise and fall, but with such people around - only tears came out as winner for those who suffered; and forever guilt for those who were responsible!
Phew ....
so much taxing but yet so true…. It was unending yet one thing which left eternal was our believe in god!
There were days when we stood in front of his statue and prayed cause someone told us to do. Even god had his share in our early days of life –after the exams before the results! God stayed with us in youth too when every prayer offered to him was for the lovely girl we loved beyond everything… Things changed and so the needs but prayers were here to stay!!
Hoping against hope was nothing but a prayer!
Yet we all did and keep doing same thing day in day out! Praying and Praying….
Let us do a different prayer this time
God let you alone be master of relations, but not make any one a destroyer. Let all humans be Saviors!
- Amen!
Smartly I asked her; how is it possible? (Making girls feel brilliant about them self is funny thing to see) …. I know everything, Came the reply! …. (and I gave up conversation)
Then she came back to the real point:
Out of work she got in touch with a guy from my office, and this fella was telling her things which she was least interested about…..
How funny are human species? Just give them a touch and they will try to be all over you… and boy… if female is in opposite chair and single then only sky is the limit to the opposite mans thoughts… desires…..
Generally I said, thank your stars… this guy is not telling his whereabouts, if this is the case then be assured something is wrong either at both ends (love) or worst for one!
I was telling her as if I am completely out of - my basic needs, to love and be loved by someone, may be by only one girl who will be special in my one life.
I too thanked my stars for being single, for not having a girl in my life at this moment. who I could “die for” the one person who you can’t stop loving! In long gone – worst past of mine, I realized one thing, sometimes being alone (not lonely though) is fun! Was just enjoying the moment of being alone and as usual my happiness was tormented by artifact – called “relation”
How funny are these human needs at times we just want to be ourself, alone, see the things happening around and feeling happy for not being part of it... just as mere spectator, and suddenly we need someone may be someone really special who will give meaning to our life! This was crazy man….
I told all this to my friend and she said; boy I think (aah how good was it to hear someone calling 29 years old man as boy :) you need to write a book on relations. How can without knowing anything or half the things girls come to final conclusion? “I think” anyway I was not in mood to question her “I think” abilities…. But writing a book on relation?
One can only write book on relation if he/she is master in it, and not just saviors… we all in relations are saviors! The real master is someone who we humans have termed it as God!
Absolutely! said she…. Now where is your “I think” Disappeared? I was about to ask but then was too engrossed in my thoughts which were about to explode!
When I was kid, I was been told; God is superpower he carefully examines our every action; the only way to salvation is to be nice. The prayer are only way to reach to heavens!
Naturally The image of God was the ultimate. The one who creates human!
God created opposite gender
God was responsible for letting know the people pleasure of sex
God kept it simple…..
But then it seems, he was also bored of simplicity, so again he brought insecurities in humans… lust in peoples mind… infidelity, craving for something unusual. This was another side of gift given to humans…..
There were unsatisfied faces around, so people entered in extra marital affairs. The unhappy souls needed some adventure so people decided to enter into outside relation. Dissatisfied went to prostitutes, not for sex, but they could lick each other toes and fingers which otherwise was not possible… The otherwise socially accepted, well behaved men and women found prostitutes as way of means for satisfying their fantasies. The insecured cheated on partners. Why did god created such things? Why did he put these stupid ideas in some people?
Some paid heavy price for his / hers partner fatal error of life. Some committed suicide, some became permanent residents of asylum. Some could never get back to normalcy. All mayhem!
Every tide brings rise and fall, but with such people around - only tears came out as winner for those who suffered; and forever guilt for those who were responsible!
Phew ....
so much taxing but yet so true…. It was unending yet one thing which left eternal was our believe in god!
There were days when we stood in front of his statue and prayed cause someone told us to do. Even god had his share in our early days of life –after the exams before the results! God stayed with us in youth too when every prayer offered to him was for the lovely girl we loved beyond everything… Things changed and so the needs but prayers were here to stay!!
Hoping against hope was nothing but a prayer!
Yet we all did and keep doing same thing day in day out! Praying and Praying….
Let us do a different prayer this time
God let you alone be master of relations, but not make any one a destroyer. Let all humans be Saviors!
- Amen!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Rest they say is History!
Tell me something about yourself:
What kind of question is this?
Are we really what we are?
Are we living life for our self?
Or are we living life of what other want us to live?
Are we living in social dogma and passing on judgments of right and wrong, good and bad?
Aren’t we not always thinking about past and hoping about future? Aren’t we not always dreaming and praying!?
Is it not hoping against hope which keeps us going?
Can it possible for mortals to describe themselves on piece of paper?
Is not everything temporary?
Money we earn, assets we create, trust we fuck, truth which is often overlooked, relations which goes for toss, is it not all temporary?
Still don’t we all crave for temporary means of happiness?
What really stays with mortals is breathe!
It’s by law of nature that we breathe!
Breath in breath out is only thing which is constant, which is utmost important, which I / you can feel, which signifies some value, which goes on and on and on… which is the only thing we can TRUST day in day out! The day the trust is broken….
They say it’s History : is not then breathe even temporary? :-)
What kind of question is this?
Are we really what we are?
Are we living life for our self?
Or are we living life of what other want us to live?
Are we living in social dogma and passing on judgments of right and wrong, good and bad?
Aren’t we not always thinking about past and hoping about future? Aren’t we not always dreaming and praying!?
Is it not hoping against hope which keeps us going?
Can it possible for mortals to describe themselves on piece of paper?
Is not everything temporary?
Money we earn, assets we create, trust we fuck, truth which is often overlooked, relations which goes for toss, is it not all temporary?
Still don’t we all crave for temporary means of happiness?
What really stays with mortals is breathe!
It’s by law of nature that we breathe!
Breath in breath out is only thing which is constant, which is utmost important, which I / you can feel, which signifies some value, which goes on and on and on… which is the only thing we can TRUST day in day out! The day the trust is broken….
They say it’s History : is not then breathe even temporary? :-)
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
U beauty..........
"Himalaya............" its huuuuuuge, its beautiful, last 40 years, I have been traveling. I have traveled to US, seen night life of Las Vegas, Islands of southern America, mummies in Egypt, Eifel tower in France, spent vacation at Newzeland, captured glimpse of African tigers, but Himalaya…. is something that stands above all the places. God have given you (Indians) a gift of lifetime, save it! Cherish it! See it!!! Don’t miss opportunity: experience beauty of Himalaya.............. If you get opportunity make most of it! javascript:void(0)
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